Pity.
One day, I’ll tell the story of my life.
My story, not others.
I’ll tell it with no lies.
No flaws.
I’ll state where I was wrong and where I was done wrong.
I’ll state where I was right and where I hoped I was right but I really wasn’t.
I’ll not bend the truth.
I’ll tell my trauma in plain sentences, hoping someone would be able to relate.
For the truth is, my life is all a big misunderstanding.
Do you think you’ll be able to comprehend?
If i wrote a 1000 words piece about the beginning of my life to where I’m at now,
Would you understand?
Would you go through the emotions with me?
Would you agree it’s been a rollercoaster?
Or worse ,
Would you pity me?
I want none of that.
But I’m afraid that’s what i’ll get.
Empathy.
The fake and the real.
Tears.
Crying at how strong I turned out to be and crying for the little girl who just wanted to run out of her own head.
I ask one more time,
Would you pity me?
But I’m not dumb.
I know you will.
I know you won’t be able to help yourself.
So I hide.
I hide behind the cracks of my soul waiting to fill them with the happiness that’s beginning to overflow my being.
I hide not in fear of people realizing what I really am.
But in fear of the pity.
There are a lot of things I don’t want in life.
Some goddamn pity?
Tops the list.
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Dear Reader,
Yes yes, it’s me again! See i still delivered? I’m not inconsistent anymore! Hand me my Accolades!
August is coming and with it, it’s bringing our 1 year Anniversary!
I don’t know what to do tbh and I’ll appreciate some ideas. Let me know?
-Your currently consistent writer😌
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